Sunday, August 21, 2016

New Chapters?

Welp.. Last day at the previous job was Thursday. Tomorrow I start the new job! It's downtown so I'll be taking the train. Me and a friend with have the joy of doing this together. I suspect mornings will be quiet and afternoons more excited. I'm excited. The ONLY down side is my schedule will be completely different from Syd's. Giving us only Friday afternoons, Saturday and Sunday mornings together. It's going to be a huge change from seeing each other almost all day everyday to seeing each other a total of two days a week.

He actually just left for work. So I've turned out all the lights opened the blinds to our balcony and am currently enjoying the sounds and grey of the rain. Also Supernatural. It's not terrible. The alone time is good.

So part of getting up and doing more things around Austin i went to a Disney Art show. It was nice. Not exactly what I expected but it was nice. I took some snaps of some Alice in Wonderland ones.

Look how pretty.

I'm going to continue this trend of checking out new places and things in Austin. i think working down town will help. Especially on Fridays since the last train is at midnight I'll have more time to scope out new places, events and people.

For now I'm going to go back to my relaxing couch potato day. He's a picture of Misu who knows exactly how to relax!

Monday, August 15, 2016

1 week

So 1 more week at my current job. Actually only four days. Fours days of this place. FOUR! God damn mother fucking four days. I'll have a three day weekend before I start my new job. I'm going to take advantage of it. Since me and the boy's schedule will be very different I'm going to take full advantage of this Friday and Saturday together.

I got to go to the cat cafe here in Austin yesterday with a friend of mine and it was so cute. Kitties everywhere! The food and coffee was good but lets be honest, everyone goes there for the cats!

So I'm going to take the boy there on Friday. Going to make a whole day of being down town. Very very fun day!

The first thing I have to do is make it through the nest four days of work.

Enough negative talk.

Saturday night I was able to go with a few of some good friends to a club called "Rose Room." It was so fun! I hadn't been dancing in a while and my whole goal was to spend it on that dance floor. Well let me fucking tell you, I did just that and my legs are killing me now. Completely worth it.

Such a fun and friend filled Saturday night from the moment we went out to the moment we woke up the next morning. I kind of needed a 1 on 1 day yesterday. Which I was able to have. After breakfast I was treated my first pedicure, got to go to the cat cafe and then went to voodoo doughnuts. It was just a great relaxing calm day after a great exciting night.

Some pictures from Sunday!

Monday, July 18, 2016

So much time

Well it's been a bit since I've made an update. I guess it's time.

So i missed the chance to teach abroad. It was upsetting but shit happens moving forward, I've decided to get my teaching certification for the state of Texas. I'm putting money together for that. Well really I'm applying to raise my credit limit. Not a huge deal since I only have two cards and one is empty.

I recently went to visit my family! FUCK YEAH! It was so much fun. I hadn't seen the family in so long. I was even able to see my grandfather which was also nice. Of course there was a small amount of weird since it had been so long since we'd seen each other. I don't think he felt odd, he just seemed happy to see me. I felt it though. There was a ting of guilt and some fear. It had been a long time.

Currently I'm ripping my hair out about how much I detest my job. It's not the company by any means. The company has some really great fair policies. It's the people I have to work for. They are...words I don't want to use on a public blog. Maybe if/when I manage to quit or hey! get fired. Which ever happens first. i just need to get out of there. I've been checking the job boards to try and stay within the company but it's not happening. I'm going to have to look elsewhere. At this point I don't care. I don't want to work with these people or this building. It stresses me out. Every morning the thought of a car accident seems more comforting than going into work. Terrible, I know.

Eventually I'll find something else.

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

Well Shit...

I was actually given the opportunity to teach abroad. I'm going to have to really think about this. Fist off I do have to spend a little bit of money... That kind of don't have? Kind of do. I also would be running the risk of losing the little family and life I built here in Austin. so there just a lot to think about.

5 years next month

I think it would be a great experience even if I only did it the one time. I've never been out of the country and I've only been to 4 states... so I haven't had the opportunity to travel much. At least if I did I didn't take them or realize they were there. So I really want to pounce on this one. ASAP. Just you know normal fear. What if I hate it. What if I get hurt. What if things are different when I get back. I feel like 5 months isn't that long of a time for things here to change unless someone wanted them to change. That could also just be my paranoia....Fuck. Fuckity balls! Fuckity fuck fuck! Shit bags. :< Is it terrible that right now I know for a fact I want a future with syd in it? I understand that a lot of that are the chemicals in my brain.... that doesn't make it any less true. i just know that I'm 26 years old and have 0 idea what I'm doing with my life. Besides working in a call center hating every minute of my day....Shit

Tuesday, April 19, 2016


I have become obsessed with Lipstick! It's very fun and really doesn't require a lot of work to apply but it makes a huge difference on my face! The brand in this picture is called BeautyBakerie! The price is good and it last all fucking day! Good shit right there!!

Thursday, April 14, 2016

Personal Afternoon

So I took a personal afternoon to put in an application at a company I'd really like to work for. Fingers crossed I really hope I get it. I'm crossing my fingers!!!! In other news, I went for a run today. Which sure doesn't sound like a huge deal but it's been a while. Back in 2013 I made it down to 135 which felt amazing. I had more energy, I slept better and I over all felt really good!! So sitting here at 165 really sucks. I mean I love myself and all that but I much preferred being 135. Sooooo I'm going to fucking work at it and get back to it. I've been making my own lunches. Portioning things out and drinking more water. YES!!! Motivation!!


Last night I had the worst dream- nightmare? Nightmare.

I was pregnant, but not just pregnant. About to burst with a child. I had no idea and the dream started with my water breaking. I was ready to cry and jump in front of a moving truck. It was just terrible. Some how my family, that lives in Florida, we at my bed side. My mother and my sister are there cheering me on while I scream at Sydney for fucking everything up!!! "We can't move around now. Life is going to suck." It was bad. All the while he's just saying sorry holding my hand while I screamed at him.

Ugh, it was just super stressful

Doctor and nurses are coming in and out of the room while I'm still scream at syd how he ruined my life and my mom and sister are beside themselves with joy. Syd seemed indifferent to the actual child being born and just more trying to help me through the situation. I actually think this is how he would handle if we actually did have a child. Fuck the baby, hows my wife doing? I'm pretty sure if there were complications and Syd had to choose the baby would lose out. Considering neither of us have any interest in a child it will never come up!

Back to the thing: My sister and my mother are cheering me on while I do those weird breathing exercises. I'm crying and yelling and Syd holding my blue hair. Ugh. It was horrible.

So half way through the thing, the birthing thing, the doctor comes in and says we have to switch rooms!!!! So we are all settled into this room and we have to leave it. By that point I had woken up. I felt like I was drenched in sweat.

Syd actually woke me up because I have to leave for work at 11 and it was 10-1030.

Terrible Dream.

Wednesday, April 13, 2016


My bestest frand!

So we took Misu to the park Sunday! It was probably the BEST day this month and exactly the day I needed. Even though I did act like a like a brat at some point in the day it was still a very great day. We had to pick up a new life jacket for Misu. Her last one was stored in a cabinet under a leaky water cooler so we had to toss it due to mold. My dog has stumpy little corgi legs and though I know she can swim I'm not taking the chance. So we picked that up first thing! It was really really cute. See below

It was way too cold to put her in the water to float around but she seemed to have a good time anyway. There was enough wind that we just let the current carry canoe half the time. It was super fucking peaceful.

Peaceful as fuck

We later took naps at Zilker park. Which was also just fantastic. Sunday could not have been any better.

We are very very cute

Saturday, April 9, 2016


Roaring Fork Cheese Cake

So it's been an interesting week. Mostly work things that i can't get into on a public blog like this. Life outside of work however has been pretty great. I know someone else as interested in poly and open type relationships. Which is great because not a lot of people understand or would be willing to discuss that. If they are they have a completely different idea of what that means than I do. Which is fine but since the view is so skewed from mine we don't have much to talk about. So it's refreshing.

Last night we had a few drinks. Some whisky Sours. Pretty good stuff.

I've only left my bed to feed the animals. I don't really feel like starting my day yet. It's actually just going to be a stay at home movie day. So food shopping for things to make home made snacks and then just whatever movies we decide to watch all day, there are few Ghibli movie Syd hasn't seen so probably those. Syd getting ready for Dark Souls (his favorite game) to come out Tuesday, so this is kind of my weekend to do whatever I want with him since he will be playing that game all fucking week. Oh well. Love. This does mean I get movie day all day today and then tomorrow we will be on Lake Austin for a good portion of the day. Maybe try a restaurant down town we haven't tried yet. Something on the cheaper side since we are trying to save our date account for PECHE!

Misu coaxing us out of bed

Tuesday, April 5, 2016


I made cupcakes!! They are cheesecake cupcakes! I left them in the oven to long so they are a little dry but not bad. I actually followed the directions and left them in there for the 20 minutes but eh. I have enough batter to make another batch tonight. How exciting!!!!

So I put in an application for another company. I hope I get it. At least an interview would be nice, if not at least I put the application in. My current job might be hiring a supervisor soon so I'm going to put in for that! Shit man. Anything to get out from the person I currently work for. Fuck! Fuck!

Going to this job everyday is like slowing letting my soul get sucked out of my body though my nose by Satan. I leave my house every morning and contemplate just driving passed work and going to Dragons Lair making a nest and reading every comic book in the place. Maybe getting a burger. Maybe moving to another state. Sigh. Really I just need to get my shit together. I don't draw as much.... or fucking ever. There was a time where art was just the best and biggest relief for me. I don't know what happened. Drawing just hasn't good for me. It's not the art it's like I just get to distracted by life and bull shit and excuses. Blerg.


Lets get back to my cupcakes! They are so fucking pretty. Again, a little dry but thats ok. I'm going to try again tonight after I pick up some butter from the store. Baking has become something really fun to do. I'm going to save for one of those stand alone mixers. I really fucking want one.

The only issue is my counter space is limited so I'd have to figure out what to do with it when I'm not using it. I've never held one but I imagine they are pretty fucking heavy.

Sunday, April 3, 2016

Well I missed some Days...

I knew I would but I'm here now. Friday was an especially stressful day of fuckery but I survived with a little help from the universe and my friends. i don't feel like thinking to much about it and since it includes work stuff it's certainly not something I'm going to put out on the internet but overall my normal morning turned to suckage about 20 minutes after waking up. So I took it upon myself to cheer myself up! ADULTING! I went to the bank to fix my debit card after they fucked it up and then I treated myself to breakfast at the Domain, where a friendly person supplied me with napkins to wipe the wet seat and table since I chose to eat outside! They then came back out to give me more napkins since I did use the original ones they gave me to wipe the water! It was a small gesture but it helped a lot.

My breakfast.

My friends from work decided it was a good night to have a some drinks so that was also very nice.

Last night we went to Top Golf which was surprisingly fun. Golfing has never ever ever been something i would be interested in. Hitting a golf ball super drunk surrounded by friends. Yes. Yes that is interesting AND fun! It was a fucking great night.

Look at me hit those balls!!!

aw we are cute!

It was exactly what I fucking needed after that shit day Friday!

Thursday, March 31, 2016

Days Dreams as a Child vs Day Dreams as an Adult

The first post

I've started blogs before but I've never actually kept up with it. Much like a lot of things in my life, I tend to half ass. So here I am giving it another go.

I'm thinking this first post is just going to be a vomit of thoughts and what I'd like this blog to be. Much like the beginning of a good movie this first post should give you a good idea of what the rest of this blog will be like! FUCK YEAH! Setting expectations.

I like to record rants and sometimes I will make mini comics about them as well. Fun.

I'm actually sitting at my work desk right now, watching an episode of Archer looking around to make sure nothing is happening. It's a pretty dead night which is great because I seem to be getting closer and fucking closer to being done with this job. Fuck. I'm excited to get off at 8 and finish my painting of a penis with wings. I'll post some pictures tomorrow. The thought of sitting on my porch drinking a God Mother (1 shot Vodka 1 shot Disaronno! That's it. It's not a fucking hard drink to make) and painting the shit out of that penis.

I have to remind myself I have a dog to feed. I can't just walk out and quit because look at that fucking face!! She's the most adorable pup ever.

I'm taking baby steps to slowly control my life. I'm sick of not remembering if I have plans or what me and my boyfriend (I have one of those too) are doing on the weekend. SO with his permission I connected the calendars on our phone so we know what each others plans are. I'm not saying we will always use it but it's good to have. It's starting to feel a bit like a marriage over here.. but without the tax breaks.

I'm out of shit to say.