Sunday, August 21, 2016
Monday, August 15, 2016
Monday, July 18, 2016
So i missed the chance to teach abroad. It was upsetting but shit happens moving forward, I've decided to get my teaching certification for the state of Texas. I'm putting money together for that. Well really I'm applying to raise my credit limit. Not a huge deal since I only have two cards and one is empty.
I recently went to visit my family! FUCK YEAH! It was so much fun. I hadn't seen the family in so long. I was even able to see my grandfather which was also nice. Of course there was a small amount of weird since it had been so long since we'd seen each other. I don't think he felt odd, he just seemed happy to see me. I felt it though. There was a ting of guilt and some fear. It had been a long time.
Currently I'm ripping my hair out about how much I detest my job. It's not the company by any means. The company has some really great fair policies. It's the people I have to work for. They are...words I don't want to use on a public blog. Maybe if/when I manage to quit or hey! get fired. Which ever happens first. i just need to get out of there. I've been checking the job boards to try and stay within the company but it's not happening. I'm going to have to look elsewhere. At this point I don't care. I don't want to work with these people or this building. It stresses me out. Every morning the thought of a car accident seems more comforting than going into work. Terrible, I know.
Eventually I'll find something else.
Wednesday, April 20, 2016
I think it would be a great experience even if I only did it the one time. I've never been out of the country and I've only been to 4 states... so I haven't had the opportunity to travel much. At least if I did I didn't take them or realize they were there. So I really want to pounce on this one. ASAP. Just you know normal fear. What if I hate it. What if I get hurt. What if things are different when I get back. I feel like 5 months isn't that long of a time for things here to change unless someone wanted them to change. That could also just be my paranoia....Fuck. Fuckity balls! Fuckity fuck fuck! Shit bags. :< Is it terrible that right now I know for a fact I want a future with syd in it? I understand that a lot of that are the chemicals in my brain.... that doesn't make it any less true. i just know that I'm 26 years old and have 0 idea what I'm doing with my life. Besides working in a call center hating every minute of my day....Shit
Tuesday, April 19, 2016
I have become obsessed with Lipstick! It's very fun and really doesn't require a lot of work to apply but it makes a huge difference on my face! The brand in this picture is called BeautyBakerie! The price is good and it last all fucking day! Good shit right there!!
Thursday, April 14, 2016
I was pregnant, but not just pregnant. About to burst with a child. I had no idea and the dream started with my water breaking. I was ready to cry and jump in front of a moving truck. It was just terrible. Some how my family, that lives in Florida, we at my bed side. My mother and my sister are there cheering me on while I scream at Sydney for fucking everything up!!! "We can't move around now. Life is going to suck." It was bad. All the while he's just saying sorry holding my hand while I screamed at him.
Ugh, it was just super stressful
Doctor and nurses are coming in and out of the room while I'm still scream at syd how he ruined my life and my mom and sister are beside themselves with joy. Syd seemed indifferent to the actual child being born and just more trying to help me through the situation. I actually think this is how he would handle if we actually did have a child. Fuck the baby, hows my wife doing? I'm pretty sure if there were complications and Syd had to choose the baby would lose out. Considering neither of us have any interest in a child it will never come up!
Back to the thing: My sister and my mother are cheering me on while I do those weird breathing exercises. I'm crying and yelling and Syd holding my blue hair. Ugh. It was horrible.
So half way through the thing, the birthing thing, the doctor comes in and says we have to switch rooms!!!! So we are all settled into this room and we have to leave it. By that point I had woken up. I felt like I was drenched in sweat.
Syd actually woke me up because I have to leave for work at 11 and it was 10-1030.
Wednesday, April 13, 2016
So we took Misu to the park Sunday! It was probably the BEST day this month and exactly the day I needed. Even though I did act like a like a brat at some point in the day it was still a very great day. We had to pick up a new life jacket for Misu. Her last one was stored in a cabinet under a leaky water cooler so we had to toss it due to mold. My dog has stumpy little corgi legs and though I know she can swim I'm not taking the chance. So we picked that up first thing! It was really really cute. See below
We later took naps at Zilker park. Which was also just fantastic. Sunday could not have been any better.
Saturday, April 9, 2016
So it's been an interesting week. Mostly work things that i can't get into on a public blog like this. Life outside of work however has been pretty great. I know someone else as interested in poly and open type relationships. Which is great because not a lot of people understand or would be willing to discuss that. If they are they have a completely different idea of what that means than I do. Which is fine but since the view is so skewed from mine we don't have much to talk about. So it's refreshing.
I've only left my bed to feed the animals. I don't really feel like starting my day yet. It's actually just going to be a stay at home movie day. So food shopping for things to make home made snacks and then just whatever movies we decide to watch all day, there are few Ghibli movie Syd hasn't seen so probably those. Syd getting ready for Dark Souls (his favorite game) to come out Tuesday, so this is kind of my weekend to do whatever I want with him since he will be playing that game all fucking week. Oh well. Love. This does mean I get movie day all day today and then tomorrow we will be on Lake Austin for a good portion of the day. Maybe try a restaurant down town we haven't tried yet. Something on the cheaper side since we are trying to save our date account for PECHE!
Tuesday, April 5, 2016
I made cupcakes!! They are cheesecake cupcakes! I left them in the oven to long so they are a little dry but not bad. I actually followed the directions and left them in there for the 20 minutes but eh. I have enough batter to make another batch tonight. How exciting!!!!
So I put in an application for another company. I hope I get it. At least an interview would be nice, if not at least I put the application in. My current job might be hiring a supervisor soon so I'm going to put in for that! Shit man. Anything to get out from the person I currently work for. Fuck! Fuck!
Going to this job everyday is like slowing letting my soul get sucked out of my body though my nose by Satan. I leave my house every morning and contemplate just driving passed work and going to Dragons Lair making a nest and reading every comic book in the place. Maybe getting a burger. Maybe moving to another state. Sigh. Really I just need to get my shit together. I don't draw as much.... or fucking ever. There was a time where art was just the best and biggest relief for me. I don't know what happened. Drawing just hasn't been...as good for me. It's not the art it's like I just get to distracted by life and bull shit and excuses. Blerg.
Lets get back to my cupcakes! They are so fucking pretty. Again, a little dry but thats ok. I'm going to try again tonight after I pick up some butter from the store. Baking has become something really fun to do. I'm going to save for one of those stand alone mixers. I really fucking want one.
The only issue is my counter space is limited so I'd have to figure out what to do with it when I'm not using it. I've never held one but I imagine they are pretty fucking heavy.
Sunday, April 3, 2016
My friends from work decided it was a good night to have a some drinks so that was also very nice.
Last night we went to Top Golf which was surprisingly fun. Golfing has never ever ever been something i would be interested in. Hitting a golf ball super drunk surrounded by friends. Yes. Yes that is interesting AND fun! It was a fucking great night.
It was exactly what I fucking needed after that shit day Friday!
Thursday, March 31, 2016
I'm thinking this first post is just going to be a vomit of thoughts and what I'd like this blog to be. Much like the beginning of a good movie this first post should give you a good idea of what the rest of this blog will be like! FUCK YEAH! Setting expectations.
I like to record rants and sometimes I will make mini comics about them as well. Fun.
I'm actually sitting at my work desk right now, watching an episode of Archer looking around to make sure nothing is happening. It's a pretty dead night which is great because I seem to be getting closer and fucking closer to being done with this job. Fuck. I'm excited to get off at 8 and finish my painting of a penis with wings. I'll post some pictures tomorrow. The thought of sitting on my porch drinking a God Mother (1 shot Vodka 1 shot Disaronno! That's it. It's not a fucking hard drink to make) and painting the shit out of that penis.
I have to remind myself I have a dog to feed. I can't just walk out and quit because look at that fucking face!! She's the most adorable pup ever.
I'm taking baby steps to slowly control my life. I'm sick of not remembering if I have plans or what me and my boyfriend (I have one of those too) are doing on the weekend. SO with his permission I connected the calendars on our phone so we know what each others plans are. I'm not saying we will always use it but it's good to have. It's starting to feel a bit like a marriage over here.. but without the tax breaks.
I'm out of shit to say.